1 year old. Where did the time go??? I spent a lot of the weekend thinking back on this past last year, and the road that led us here. Nathan had a ROUGH first year, and that's an understatement. But through it all he amazed us with his strength. It was fitting to name him after my grandpa, and little brother. I went back and re-read this site, and can't believe how much went on, and to see all the concerns I had when I was pregnant with him. It just amazes me. When I read the journal "I've decided, 04/10/08" I could not help but crack up. To think I was SO scared to give birth, I actually said I was not going to do it. ~Lol. Even though I did not have him the way I wanted, I would not change a thing about it. Kevin and I wanted him SO bad, and we were both ecstatic when we found out I was pregnant. And now a year later our love has grown into SO much more.
I look at Nathan and can't help but to laugh and cry. I never realized how much you could love 1 person until he was born. I actually found the perfect shirt for Nathan while we were in Birch Run last month. It says "Mommy's New Man". Which is SO true. I just love him. I would do ANYTHING for that little boy, as would his daddy. Saturday( 5/30) at about 5:30pm I was thinking about how Kevin and I were on our way to the hospital to begin the induction. I remember being so excited yet so nervous about it. But I was ready to meet our son or daughter. I remember exactly what I was wearing:
I remember them coming into the room to start the induction process, and how I kept telling myself: "I am ready, let's do this". They started me on Cervidil, and would check the progress in 12 hours. I am sure everyone thought that peanut would be born the next day. Well morning rolled around and NOTHING!!! The medicine did not work at all. They then tried another medicine (cytotec), and while I felt some contractions it really didn't work. Once that didn't work I kind of knew in the back of my mind that I would need a C-section, even though I did not want to go there. They broke my water about 5pm (3rd attempt), and gave me an epidural (They thought the epidural would relax my body enough to progress). I was also given pitocin to speed things up. Finally Sunday morning rolls around, and in deed they decided a C-section was best. So they got me prepped for my So they got me prepped for my C-section:
Again I was super excited but super nervous. I remember them pushing me into the O R, while they made Kevin stay in a broom closet. (As he put it) The epi didn't work, so I ended up needing a spinal. I thought they were going to start without Kevin, but they assured me he was on his way. Finally there he was holding my hand. Kevin was AMAZING, he just talk to me the whole time letting me know everything was OK. Moments later we heard the most amazing sound in the whole world: The cries, and then "It's A Boy" That was just music to my ears. They held him over the sheet and we just melted. We cried as Kevin held me tighter. His first words: He looks just like me." (Which I totally agreed) My first words: "I told you it was a boy". (Kevin thought it was a girl) I remember Kevin holding him, and letting me give him kisses before they were off to the nursery.
After that I must have passed out, cause I DO NOT remember them finishing me up, or me being wheeled into the recovery room. I remember waking up, and looking everywhere for my boys. Shortly after a nurse came to me and asked if I would love to see my baby. Well of course!!!!! So she went to get an update, and finally after what seemed like forever, it happened:
What could be better????
From that moment on, I knew my life would not be the same. And why would I EVER want to go back?? I DON'T AND NEVER WILL. Now to the present:
Today was a VERY good day. Nathan was up early (7am) which worried me because he had an appointment at 10am for his pictures. On the way to Penney's he fell asleep, which was good because I knew he would be in a good mood once he woke up. He did VERY well, and we got a lot of great shots. He did get fussy when we were doing the family shots, but he made it through. We get them on the 12th and I cannot wait!!!! After that, we went to pickup his cake. Once we got home, Nathan gave me roses. They are just beautiful.
After we were settled at home, Kevin and I started cleaning for the get together tonight, and I put together his present. That was not an easy task. A few times I was ready to throw the hammer through the window. Anywho, Kevin and I got some cleaning done before everyone arrived. Nathan was SO excited to see everyone, especially his cousin Adryan. He even gave her a sweet hug, that brought us all to tears. We have such a sweet little man on our hands.
Once everyone showed up, Kevin and Jim went to get the food. We had ordered pizza and Mr. Chicken. The food was very yummy. After we all ate, we got things ready to give Nathan his cake since he was just exhausted and was getting fussy. So we gave Nathan his cake and immediatly he put his 2 fingers in the cake, and looked very unsure what to do.
So Kevin put a little on his finger so Nathan could taste it. He had a look on his face as to say: "I am not sure if I like this or not"
He really didn't get crazy and tear it apart, so Kristal decided he needed his baseball bat. Oh he loved that.
He began to get fussy again, so we decided he had enough with the cake, and got him ready to be washed up. I was kind of excited he only got the cake on his arms and hands. Hey, easy clean up is always a plus. As Kevin pulled him from the high chair, and being that Nathan was SO tired, he started rubbing his eyes, and got frosting ALL over his face. It was hilarious. We were all just cracking up. He looked so cute and funny.
After he got cleaned up,
He played with his piano before we started doing presents.
Poor little man was SO tired, but he was a real trooper throughout the entire day. So we got through the gifts fairly quickly. He loved playing with his maraca's, and the paper. He really cleaned up~lol
I have NO clue where to put everything. And to think he still has gifts coming on Saturday. Oh Boy!!! I really can't wait for his party. It is going to be a lot of fun, and we get to see some friends and family that we haven't seen in awhile. Today was just perfect. It was so nice to have so many people come by on his birthday. So thank you, Grandma & Grandpa, Grandma & Paw Paw, Matt, Kristal & Adryan, Bryan & Lindsay, Melissa & Mike, GGma, and last but not least Jim. You definitely made Nathan's birthday the best.
Nathan went to bed fairly quickly. As Mike and Kevin played UFC on Xbox 360, Melissa, Lindsay, and I wrote down a list of things I still have to buy for the party. I still can't believe that our son is already a year old. This past year just flew by, and even though it was a rough year, it was still an amazing year.
Nathan you will always be mommy and daddy's little peanut. Our love for you grows more and more everyday. You are THE BEST thing that happened to us, and I just want you to know, that we will always be there for you no matter what. You are such a strong little man, and you continue to surprise and amaze us. We love you SO much, and can't wait to see what the future holds for you. Happy 1st Birthday Son!!!!
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