They Changed it

Well Kevin and I went to the doctors yesterday for another appointment. All went well, I lost another pound!!! They assured me not to worry because it happens. We heard the heartbeat again, very strong. A plus was my mom was there and got to hear it. She was just about in tears. I was very happy to share that with her. Peanut was swimming around a lot, but finally chilled long enough to give us a good listen. After we heard the heartbeat, I asked her if they were changing my due date, since the ultrasound tech. said they might. She said yes indeed it is changing from May 15th to May 24th. But as we all know its just a estimate. Our next appt is on Jan. 22nd we have an ultrasound appt at 4:30 and we see the doc at 5:00pm. I can't wait to see peanut again.

Heartbeat

Peanut's Heartbeat was 163bpm

First Ultrasound

Well Kevin and I had our first ultrasound appt. It was totally amazing. In just a few seconds on the screen was our little peanut. Everything looks great. It seemed like every min. Kevin would ask the tech "So everything look good" and of course we always got a "yes" response. Peanut is adorable. I am even more in love than before. We seen the heartbeat and it was very strong and at 163bpm. I was just amazed. Peanut looked to be sleeping the whole time, and then I swear he/she let out a big yawn. It was SO CUTE!!!! Thursday marks our 18 weeks. But the tech said peanut is measuring 16 and a half weeks. (my original thought) She said she was going to show the pics to the doc on Wednesday and he will decide if they want to push back my due date. She also said it looks to be too soon to tell the sex. But we advised her that we don't want to know it. So she didn't feel bad she couldn't tell us. I did ask her why I didn't get the 3D, like they told me I would. She said its because things are still forming and the 3D would look scary. But my next ultrasound will be Jan 22 and it will definitly be the 3D. I cannot wait to see our little one again.

I am going to be a Aunt

Well yesterday my brother Matt and sister n law Kristal told us they are expecting. I am SO excited to finally be a Aunt. I am going to be the bestest Aunt ever. They are due July 19th, 2008. I think it is so cool that are babies are going to grow up together. This is the best news.

Heartbeat

Peanuts heartbeat was at 165BPM

We heard it!!!!

Yesterday at my doctors appt, I got to hear the heartbeat. WOW!!!! It was AMAZING!!! When she put the goo on my belly, and was getting to doppler out, she said "Now it may take a minute to find the heatbeat" Nope not true, the minute she put the doppler to my belly, we heard the heartbeat. It was just for a second or two because peanut swam away. Then 30 seconds later peanut came back, and we heard it for like a minute straight. It was amazing. I have fallen even more in love with peanut. I actually have a little life inside me. Very strong and loud at 165BPM Of course I cried. We also scheduled my first ultrasound (in 3D~YAY!!!) For December 11th. I can't wait!!!!

HFW Baby Shower

Since this is the hospital I will be delivering at. Last night I went to Henry Ford Wyandotte for a 'baby shower'. The nurses talked about what to expect while pregnant, and what to expect when bringing the baby home. It was VERY informative. They also gave away a lot of gifts. We also got to tour the rooms. Its nice that I will be in one room before during and after. They showed us 2 rooms, the first one I went into was the 'before & after' set up room. It was very cozy and nice. They have everything you need. But then we went to the second room, the 'labor setup room' I tell you what I was scared. To see the bed broke down for delivery, and the table with all the needed supplies. I was like this is not a happy place~lol I want to go back to the nice room. Well this is feeling really real now. It was great, and informative.

Another Disapointment

Yesterday I was supposed to have a appt, and had to re-schedule because my doc was at the hospital with a patient. I was desvasted because I really want to hear the heartbeat. My new appt is next Tuesday if she is not called away, and she should be trying to hear the heartbeat with the doppler. As well as talking about scheduling a ultrasound. As for an ultrasound they dont do it till 18 weeks. I just really want to hear and see the baby, to know everything is okay, and to put my mind at ease.

I was really upset yesterday when I found out it was canceled. I cried BAD!!!! I just was so excited, and got the let down. Not to mention Kevin upset me a little, by a comment he made. I was really quiet on the ride home, just trying not to think about it and to stop crying. Once we got home, I just wanted to go to bed. Kevin was not happy I didnt want to talk about it. Its just sometimes I just want to be left alone. So I slept till about 7:15pm. Kevin was already gone to his dart game. SO he text me later to see if everything was okay. We texted back n forth for a bit. I told him that is up north comment hurt me. He of course said he was sorry, but then said I need to talk to him about this stuff. Well I understand that, but sometimes I just need to be left alone

Wow!! My jeans don't fit

Well I wore my blue jeans on Friday at work, and they seemed to be okay. A little tight, but manageable. Well yesterday I was going out with my mom, and put my jeans on, and guess what??? They did not fit. I couldn't believe it. They are the only pair I have. So I zipped them up as far as they could go, and put a rubberband in the loop hole and attached it to the button. Thank god for family. I showed my mom, and she was cracking up. I told her that I can't afford a pair of jeans right now, so she bought me a pair of maternity jeans. And then my grams bought me another pair, and a shirt. I thought that was super nice of them. They are the best!!!! And I am so happy, I now have jeans that fit. And they are SO COMFY!!! At least I won't need work pants for awhile. Most of my work pants are stretchy.

My thoughts

Well today I am feeling pretty *BLAH* I found out my grandma S. passed away. (we knew it was coming, but you never think it will happen) I was heart broken, but I tried to stay as calm as possible for "peanut". I just keep thinking that, I am SO glad I got to tell her she was going to be a great grandma. She was SO happy. And all she kept saying was "I'm finally a great grandma" It warms my heart knowing she knew, and was excited. And I know she is watching over me and peanut. We are making the trip to Indian River Friday for a little service at the gravesite. I will get to talk to my grandpa too. When my mom and I would go on our yearly trips we ALWAYS stopped at the gravesite to see and talk to grandpa. But we haven't been up there in about 2 years. I miss it. I know they are now together, and happy.

It is about a 5 hour drive, so I told my mom that we have to make a lot of stops. (So I can stretch and of course pee) I am sure it will take longer to get up there. I am glad though I get 3 days off work. Its a horrible reason to get off work, but I am glad I can get away and not think about it. One less thing to think about.

Well on the baby note: I am feeling pretty good. Still can't eat healthy. Everytime I want to make a home cooked meal, or take lunch from home, I get sick to my stomach. Just thinking about it, or trying to eat it, makes me sick. But if I think about it, or get something from a fast food place, or a restaurant I'm Fine. How weird is that??? I told myself if and when I got pregnant, I was going to do everything right, but eating out, I know is not good. (You would think I wouldn't want fast food, since I hadn't had any of it for 2 months before being pregnant) I just pray everything will be fine, and our baby will be healthy.

November 6th at 4pm, DH and I get to see and hear the baby's heartbeat. We are SO excited.

This is the email DH sent me at work today. I love him SO much. He is truly my soulmate:

I also wanted to say that I am very proud of you . I cant wait for peanut, I am so so excited. and im sure nerves will kick in but I am not at all nervous yet. and I'm so proud you have been handling everything great. and im glad you are trying to make sure you get plenty of rest. thats good.

Doctor Appt Yesterday

I went to the doctors yesterday 10/09, and I thought I was almost 8 weeks pregnant. Well I was wrong, I am almost 9 weeeks. My new EDD is May 15th. She did a Pap, took blood, and I had to give a urine sample. It didn't take too long. She said everything looks good, and wants to see me in a month. We are SO happy. I get to see my baby, and hear the heartbeat on November 6th. Yea!!!! One more month. I can't wait. This is just SO exciting. After we went to Mallie's to celebrate my lil brothers 1 year heart transplant. I had a blast. It was SO much fun. Plus I got to tell Michele & Jeff McNett. They are SO excited. Michele started to cry right away. I am glad to have such great firends and family. I love them all.

The Secret is FINALLY Out!!!

Well Yesterday 10/04 we told our familes. They are SO excited. First we went and told my dad, since he was going out with friends. I said to pop "I have Good news and Bad news" He was like "I don't need anymore bad news" I said "The bad news is It's gonna cost money" He was like "I don't have any money" So I told him "The good news is....I'm pregnant" His face just lit up. He was So happy and excited. After the excited calmed down, I told him, how I was telling mom. Well he decided now not to go out with work, we was coming to dinner with us. I was happy about that.

Next Stop: DH's parents.

SO we got there, and DH helped his dad unload the car, then told his dad to wash his hands. We handed them an anniversary card since their 32nd Anniversary was Wednesday. It read:

Mom and Dad,

Congrats on 32 wonderful years. We love you both very much. We were thinking about it and We wanted to get you a special present for this anniversary, but money is funny right now with the new house and with christmas coming. So in may, you will be getting your present. You will be getting....

YOUR FIRST GRANDCHILD

We had the "Your first Grandchild" covered up. Once they pulled the paper off it, I swear the whole block heard them scream. They are SO happy and excited. They just cried. We loved it.

Next stop: Telling my Mom

So we got to Jon's Goodtime Bar. (We love that place, and know the whole staff) And DH and I were giving pops a hard time, about being there. (Just so mom wouldn't suspect.) Once we got inside we sat down, and Kevin and Bryan were cracking jokes. Then we ordered our food. Then my announcement: I said "Mom I just want to let you know, I have the best husband around...look what he got me" Then I handed her a JCPenney box. (Had a pregnancy test in it) She opens the box takes out the bracelet case, opens it...looks at it, looks at me, back at the box, and then at me again, and says "You?". I smiled and said "Yes". She was shocked. She started to get all red, and started to cry, then liked screamed" She showed all the girls at Jon's. Hugged me and then asked a bunch of questions. She is a happy Grandma. After we ate we made our last stop..With mom.

Last Stop: Grandma E's House

So we got to Gram's house, and chit chatted for a bit, then asked how she was doing. Kevin told her she needs to get better. And I said because you are going to be a great grandma. She was so excited to hear that.

Well we told just about everyone. I finally got a hold of my older brother. He was so excited. Asked me a bunch of questions. Then said "I can't believe my lil sis is knocked up" He is so crazy!!!! I told Kristal this morning. She is excited too.

My mom told me this morning she is buying the crib. I can't believe it. It was unexpected. Our baby truly is not going to want for anything. We are truly blessed.

To Peanut:

I can't wait to hold you in my arms. You are a blessing from god. We have been wishing for you since November 2005. Now you are in mommy's belly growing, and becoming your own person. See you in May my sweet little peanut. We love you.

URG!!!!

Why are my parents SO difficult. Pops never does anything, or goes anywhere. But the ONE time I need him home, he is going out. URG!!!!!! Why can't they cooperate. So now we are going to tell my pops first, then run over to Kevin's parents. My mom is also going out to dinner with Bryan and Lindsay, so we are going to meet them up there, and tell them. I can't wait and I am SO excited. I just hope they don't have any Idea.

Well....its Official!

Well I called the doctors office Friday, and after they contacted the lab, she came back and said I am 100% pregnant. My HCG level is 10,177. DH and I are SO excited. We have decided to tell our families before Oct. 9th, we can't wait that long, and we don't want to take away from Bryan's day. We were going to tell them Saturday, but being that its hunting season, my dad is gone for the weekend not coming home till Wednesday, and DH dad is leaving next Friday. So we are telling our families Thursday. We can't wait. Its been SO hard keeping this a secret. They don't even know we were trying. I figured we have kept it a secret for a year and a half, whats another week. The hardest was this weekend. I spent just about the whole weekend with my mom, and wanted to tell her SO bad, but I couldn't DH would have killed me~lol. I am counting down the days to tell our family.

The waiting game

Well yesterday was my doctors appt. I knew what the doctors was going to say before we even got there. She came in and said "Well that was quick, see I told you it would happen" Before Dr.Johnson came in the room, Kevin and I were talking about baby names, as I was sitting there with a sheet around me waiting to be examined. She answered some questions for me, and then did a quick exam, said everything was fine. She said I was going to get my blood work done, and that she wanted to see me in 2 weeks for my first official prenatal appointment. I had my blood work done, and was told to call the next day after 12 for my results.

I did have my very first craving yesterday. I wanted White Castle, and boy was it good.

Well I couldn't wait anymore, I called the doctors office today at 12:15pm, and was told the nurse was on lunch. URG!!! I can't wait anymore. She took my name and number, and said the nurse would get back with me. I can't wait to get the results. I will post the results later today!!!!!

Doctor Appointment Made

Well yesterday I called the doctor on my lunch and we have an appt. on Thursday 09/27 at 11:45am. I am excited. I still can't believe its real. Yesterday, and today I have had nausea all day. This part is no fun. But the end result is ALL worth it. DH and I decided not to find out the gender until the baby is born. So until that time, we are calling the baby "peanut" Because I have 2 test left. I am taking one again Thursday morning before work, just to make sure. I know it will come back with a BFP because I have already tested twice, but I want to do it again. DH and I are having the hardest time, because we are not telling anyone till 10/09. Which is still 2 weeks away. This is going to be a LONG 2 weeks, longer than the 2WW to test. I know we will make it, we have waited this long. Man I am SO EXCITED!!!! I just want to shout it to the world!!!! "I AM PREGNANT

Umm...Is it true??

Well my back went out again, and I was in SO much pain. Yesterday 09/22 we were having our housewarming/Dad's retirement/Bryan's Good Health party, and I could hardly get out of bed. Well when I woke up yesterday morning, I wanted to take a Vicoden. I decided I would take a pregnancy test (I didnt think I was pregnant, but because I was late (my periods have been so irregular) I decided I would take the last test I had. So I took the test, waited for the results knowing I would see a BFN, BUT to my surprise there was a + OMG I just got a BFP, is this real. I was in shock. So I woke up my husband, and was like "Honey, its time to wake up, we have to get everything set up." When his eyes were half open, I said "Hey, I wanted to take a Vicoden, but I wanted to just make sure, honey this test says I am pregnant." His eyes were wide open, he was so excited, he kept saying "are you sure". I showed him the test, and he almost cried. I was in shock. Needless to say I did not take any medicine. Before anyone came over I went to the store and bought a box of 3 digital tests. I wanted to make sure, so I decided I would test this morning, and tomorrow morning. It was so hard for us to not say anything, but I want to wait a bit. Everytime we passed eachother we would smile. This morning, I was up at 6:30am, cause I could not sleep. I grabbed the digital test, took it, and I got another BFP. I think its safe to say, after 1 year 6 months, we are having a BABY!!!!!!!

We have decided to Nickname our lil one "Peanut" Since we are not finding out if we are having a boy or a girl!!! We are so excited!

Someday I will Understand

I LOVE this Song!!!! It means a lot to me.

"Someday (I Will Understand)"

[Verse 1:] Nothing seems to be the way That it used to Everything seems shallow God give me truth In me And tell me somebody is watching Over me And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand In God's whole plan And what he's done to me Oh but maybe Someday I will breathe And I'll finally see I'll see it all in my baby

[Verse 2:] Don't you run too fast my dear Why don't you stop? Just stop and listen to your tears They're all you've got It's in you You see somebody is watching Over you And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand In God's whole plan And what he does to you Oh but maybe Someday you will breathe And you'll finally see You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby

No moment Will be more true Than the moment I look at you

It's in you You see somebody is watching Over you And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand In God's whole plan And what he does to you Oh but maybe Someday you will breathe And you'll finally see You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby

Back Pain

On June 8th I had major back pains, went to the ER and got it taken care of after like a month of pain. Well August 22nd I bent over to pick up my kitty and before I could grab him, I heard a crack/pop on my back, and have been having horrible pain. I went August 24th for a CT scan (before O). Well yesterday I went to the doctors to get the results. He stated I have a bulging disc, and there is nothing he can do about it. Its something I have to live with. He did state that I could get a steriod shot that would help it, but its only temporary. WELL, because DH and I are TTC I will not have the shot done. SO I guess my only option is try different things to help the pain. I was told Tylenol is OK while TTC and Pregnancy, but I try not to take anything unless I REALLY need it. I have not taken any kind of medication for over a week, so I think my system is cleared out. I am scared though, because having this back pain, I am sure will make it hard to carry a child for 9 months. I guess only time will tell.

OPK

I had one more test to take this morning for the month. Now I showed a + on Monday and Tuesday. But this morning I got a MAJOR + I mean the line was super dark. So I am thinking today not Monday is the best day to conceive. For some reason I am really thinking this is our month to get a BFP. I don't want to get to excited, but I can just feel it. I guess only time will tell.

Two week wait

Yesterday was my most fertile day. So now I am on the TWW list. I really hope that Sept is our month to get pregnant. About 9 months ago I had gone to a psyhic and she advised I would either deliver a baby this September, or get pregnant. I really hope she was right, and this is the month for DH and I. The only thing I am worried about is my back issue. I am having major pain, and go see the doctor on 09/06 to go over the CT I had done on 08/24. I hope its nothing major, and can be taken care of. I have not taken any pain pills since O. It has been VERY hard not to take anything, since I am in so much pain. I guess only time will tell.

Doctor Appt Yesterday

Well Kevin and I went to the doctors yesterday, and my ultrasound looks good. Next step that was suggested was that we should see about doing an xray of all my parts. (ovaries, tubes, etc.) That doesnt sound simple. I sure hope its all good. I have been using the Opt for 2 months, and hopefully this will help us conceive.

Still Trying

Well its been 17 months since we have been TTC#1. We are getting pretty disappointed. I never thought it would take so long to get pregnant. I am seeing the GYN tomorrow to make sure everything is okay. We will not give up hope. It will happen.

Another Disapointment

Well after being 30 days late, and 59 days since my last period, I have finally started. I had spotting yesterday, and this morning my period started. I am so depresssed and dissapointed. This is the hardest thing. I can't take much more heartache. Kevin is totally devestated as well. I just dont know what to say anymore.

Told no...but could I be?

It's been awhile since I posted an entry. I just have been down and depressed that I have not gotten pregnant yet, and the past year has been so stressful with getting a new job, and having family issues. But I am back now. My back was botherin me really bad on June 8th, I went to the ER, and before they did Xrays I had a PT taken (urine) and it was negative. So I had the Xrays and we on some drugs to help the pain. Well I still had not started my period, and a friend told me that sometimes it can happen where you don't produce enough hormones to show positive on a urine test. I decided to take a HPT on June 16th. It was negative. Whats going on?? I have not been stressed or anything to cause a delay in my periods. So whats up. Now I have been extremly tired, with headaches, and a little nausea. But could that just be all in my head. I have a doctors appt, July 12th so we will see. However it is now June 25th I am 21 days late. I Hope I really am pregnant, but I refuse to get my hopes up, especially since I had 2 tests taken and both negative.