We're Pregnant....AGAIN!!!!

When we decided to try for #2, we already decided to give this baby the nickname pumpkin. We think it's really adorable

06/14/10 - Today I found out that I am pregnant with our second child. (Pumpkin) We have been trying since about November 2009. I have been so irregular that I didn’t think it was possible that I was pregnant. So I was talking it over with our good friend Elke, and she suggested that we go to the dollar store and pick up a test. I was hesitant at first, but went ahead and picked it up anyway. I hadn’t planned on testing until after work, but my buddy told me I should do it on my lunch break. So there I was in the little bathroom stall, trying to figure out how to use the dollar store test. It was digital, and you had to put the stick in somehow into the machine. It was weird. So after I took the test, I waited for the results. A few minutes later I picked up the test, for sure that I was going to see “Not Pregnant” on the screen. Well to my shock it said “PREGNANT” I couldn’t contain myself. I was SO excited. Of course I went and showed Elke, who was so thrilled. Then I couldn’t sit still. All I wanted to do was be home so I could tell Kevin. (Who didn’t get off work till 10pm) To pass the time, I texted a few of my mommy friends, and posted on our mommy boards. I was in heaven.

It seemed like forever until Kevin was getting home. I had dinner at my moms, and it was SO hard not to spill the beans. But I didn’t. Then I kept thinking…how do I tell Kevin. Then it hit me…take a video of Nathan in his Big Brother tee shirt.

It was perfect. Kevin got home and I said I needed to show him this cute video I took of Nathan. He starts watching, and says, "What does his shirt say" Then he just looked at me and said "OMG R U Pregnant?" I said yes. He just screamed and kept saying "Shut Up, are you serious, Shut up" LOL. It was great. I even showed him the Second test I tool last night (EPT~just to make sure~Lol)

He was in tears last night. He is on top of the world right now. As am I.

I found this crazy though. (I didn’t prompt him or anything) Nathan and I were on the couch before he went to bed, and I said Nathan where is the baby. He then points to my belly, kisses it and says "Good Girl, good good girl" (he doesn’t say boy yet) Wonder if that's a sign??? I was like OMG!!!! It threw me for a loop because I never pointed to my belly. I just told him mom and dad were going to have a baby and that he was going to be a big brother.

Umm...Is it true??

Well my back went out again, and I was in SO much pain. Yesterday 09/22 we were having our housewarming/Dad's retirement/Bryan's Good Health party, and I could hardly get out of bed. Well when I woke up yesterday morning, I wanted to take a Vicoden. I decided I would take a pregnancy test (I didnt think I was pregnant, but because I was late (my periods have been so irregular) I decided I would take the last test I had. So I took the test, waited for the results knowing I would see a BFN, BUT to my surprise there was a + OMG I just got a BFP, is this real. I was in shock. So I woke up my husband, and was like "Honey, its time to wake up, we have to get everything set up." When his eyes were half open, I said "Hey, I wanted to take a Vicoden, but I wanted to just make sure, honey this test says I am pregnant." His eyes were wide open, he was so excited, he kept saying "are you sure". I showed him the test, and he almost cried. I was in shock. Needless to say I did not take any medicine. Before anyone came over I went to the store and bought a box of 3 digital tests. I wanted to make sure, so I decided I would test this morning, and tomorrow morning. It was so hard for us to not say anything, but I want to wait a bit. Everytime we passed eachother we would smile. This morning, I was up at 6:30am, cause I could not sleep. I grabbed the digital test, took it, and I got another BFP. I think its safe to say, after 1 year 6 months, we are having a BABY!!!!!!!

We have decided to Nickname our lil one "Peanut" Since we are not finding out if we are having a boy or a girl!!! We are so excited!

Someday I will Understand

I LOVE this Song!!!! It means a lot to me.

"Someday (I Will Understand)"

[Verse 1:] Nothing seems to be the way That it used to Everything seems shallow God give me truth In me And tell me somebody is watching Over me And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand In God's whole plan And what he's done to me Oh but maybe Someday I will breathe And I'll finally see I'll see it all in my baby

[Verse 2:] Don't you run too fast my dear Why don't you stop? Just stop and listen to your tears They're all you've got It's in you You see somebody is watching Over you And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand In God's whole plan And what he does to you Oh but maybe Someday you will breathe And you'll finally see You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby

No moment Will be more true Than the moment I look at you

It's in you You see somebody is watching Over you And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand In God's whole plan And what he does to you Oh but maybe Someday you will breathe And you'll finally see You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby You'll see it all in your baby

Back Pain

On June 8th I had major back pains, went to the ER and got it taken care of after like a month of pain. Well August 22nd I bent over to pick up my kitty and before I could grab him, I heard a crack/pop on my back, and have been having horrible pain. I went August 24th for a CT scan (before O). Well yesterday I went to the doctors to get the results. He stated I have a bulging disc, and there is nothing he can do about it. Its something I have to live with. He did state that I could get a steriod shot that would help it, but its only temporary. WELL, because DH and I are TTC I will not have the shot done. SO I guess my only option is try different things to help the pain. I was told Tylenol is OK while TTC and Pregnancy, but I try not to take anything unless I REALLY need it. I have not taken any kind of medication for over a week, so I think my system is cleared out. I am scared though, because having this back pain, I am sure will make it hard to carry a child for 9 months. I guess only time will tell.

OPK

I had one more test to take this morning for the month. Now I showed a + on Monday and Tuesday. But this morning I got a MAJOR + I mean the line was super dark. So I am thinking today not Monday is the best day to conceive. For some reason I am really thinking this is our month to get a BFP. I don't want to get to excited, but I can just feel it. I guess only time will tell.

Two week wait

Yesterday was my most fertile day. So now I am on the TWW list. I really hope that Sept is our month to get pregnant. About 9 months ago I had gone to a psyhic and she advised I would either deliver a baby this September, or get pregnant. I really hope she was right, and this is the month for DH and I. The only thing I am worried about is my back issue. I am having major pain, and go see the doctor on 09/06 to go over the CT I had done on 08/24. I hope its nothing major, and can be taken care of. I have not taken any pain pills since O. It has been VERY hard not to take anything, since I am in so much pain. I guess only time will tell.

Doctor Appt Yesterday

Well Kevin and I went to the doctors yesterday, and my ultrasound looks good. Next step that was suggested was that we should see about doing an xray of all my parts. (ovaries, tubes, etc.) That doesnt sound simple. I sure hope its all good. I have been using the Opt for 2 months, and hopefully this will help us conceive.

Still Trying

Well its been 17 months since we have been TTC#1. We are getting pretty disappointed. I never thought it would take so long to get pregnant. I am seeing the GYN tomorrow to make sure everything is okay. We will not give up hope. It will happen.

Another Disapointment

Well after being 30 days late, and 59 days since my last period, I have finally started. I had spotting yesterday, and this morning my period started. I am so depresssed and dissapointed. This is the hardest thing. I can't take much more heartache. Kevin is totally devestated as well. I just dont know what to say anymore.

Told no...but could I be?

It's been awhile since I posted an entry. I just have been down and depressed that I have not gotten pregnant yet, and the past year has been so stressful with getting a new job, and having family issues. But I am back now. My back was botherin me really bad on June 8th, I went to the ER, and before they did Xrays I had a PT taken (urine) and it was negative. So I had the Xrays and we on some drugs to help the pain. Well I still had not started my period, and a friend told me that sometimes it can happen where you don't produce enough hormones to show positive on a urine test. I decided to take a HPT on June 16th. It was negative. Whats going on?? I have not been stressed or anything to cause a delay in my periods. So whats up. Now I have been extremly tired, with headaches, and a little nausea. But could that just be all in my head. I have a doctors appt, July 12th so we will see. However it is now June 25th I am 21 days late. I Hope I really am pregnant, but I refuse to get my hopes up, especially since I had 2 tests taken and both negative.

My Answer:

I went to the doctors yesterday, and took a test. It was Neg. I was so hurt and upset. She did say that if I do not start my next week, to come in for a blood test. But I'm sure its no. I am so upset, because I don't get it. There are millions of people to get pregnant that don't want a baby, and yet I want a baby for than anything. Kevin said it will happen, and I know it will. I just didn't think it would take this long. We have been trying since March. Today, I am better now. Not as upset. But its hard.

SO Unsure

I am so unsure, if I am pregnant. I took the test on 8/24/06 and it was negative, however I am a week late. My hopes get more and more up there everyday I don't start. I am making an appointment today. As soon as 9:00am hits, I am making the call. I am so nervous, because I want this more than anything. I am trying so hard not to get my hopes up, but its hard. Well I guess we will see tonight. Oh please, I hope she says I am pregnant.

I guess not

I still haven't started yet. So I took a test this morning, and it was negative. I guess I should be starting anytime soon. Also all the symptoms I am having is just me getting sick. I am really sad. We have been trying since March, is it ever going to happen?

How I feel

Today I feel sick to my stomach, and my back is killing me. My chest is still sore, and I am extremly tired. I have not started yet. However, am I just congering all this up in my head, I might be. I am not sure, and I do not want to get my hopes up. Thats the main reason, I do not want to take the test. I have taken a test before, and was devasated when it came back neg. I think I will wait until tomorrow to take it, if I do not start. I really hope I am pregnant, but I'm afraid to get my hopes up.

What I am feeling

Ok, for the past week, I am very sore, and tender in the breast area. And all morning today I am dizzy. I do not like this dizzy feeling I am having.

Pregnancy Dreams

I had a dream that I was pregnant, and then I was at the hospital, where I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Kevin and I were so Happy.

It's my Birthday

Well today is my birthday. I was hoping to have the best gift ever..A Baby. But its not going to happen. Oh well it's only been a few weeks. I know it doesn't happen that fast.

Time to start TTC

Well its been 3 months, and we have started TTC. We are very excited, about getting pregnant and bringing a baby into this world.I want so bad to at least tell my mom.She is my best friend, and it kills me not to tell her. But Kevin and I have decided that its for the best, and it will be a HUGE surprise.I can't wait until I get a positive on a pregnancy test.

We want a Baby

Kevin and I have decided we want a baby!!!! I am going off the pill, and in 3 months, we will be TTC. We are SO excited. We decided not to tell our families, because we want it to be a surprise. Plus if we did tell them, they would put SO much pressure on us. For instance, if I say, "Man I don't feel good" They will respond with "Maybe your pregnant." I can't take that. I hope we get pregnant fast. I can't wait to be a mommy.