Another Disapointment

Yesterday I was supposed to have a appt, and had to re-schedule because my doc was at the hospital with a patient. I was desvasted because I really want to hear the heartbeat. My new appt is next Tuesday if she is not called away, and she should be trying to hear the heartbeat with the doppler. As well as talking about scheduling a ultrasound. As for an ultrasound they dont do it till 18 weeks. I just really want to hear and see the baby, to know everything is okay, and to put my mind at ease.

I was really upset yesterday when I found out it was canceled. I cried BAD!!!! I just was so excited, and got the let down. Not to mention Kevin upset me a little, by a comment he made. I was really quiet on the ride home, just trying not to think about it and to stop crying. Once we got home, I just wanted to go to bed. Kevin was not happy I didnt want to talk about it. Its just sometimes I just want to be left alone. So I slept till about 7:15pm. Kevin was already gone to his dart game. SO he text me later to see if everything was okay. We texted back n forth for a bit. I told him that is up north comment hurt me. He of course said he was sorry, but then said I need to talk to him about this stuff. Well I understand that, but sometimes I just need to be left alone

Wow!! My jeans don't fit

Well I wore my blue jeans on Friday at work, and they seemed to be okay. A little tight, but manageable. Well yesterday I was going out with my mom, and put my jeans on, and guess what??? They did not fit. I couldn't believe it. They are the only pair I have. So I zipped them up as far as they could go, and put a rubberband in the loop hole and attached it to the button. Thank god for family. I showed my mom, and she was cracking up. I told her that I can't afford a pair of jeans right now, so she bought me a pair of maternity jeans. And then my grams bought me another pair, and a shirt. I thought that was super nice of them. They are the best!!!! And I am so happy, I now have jeans that fit. And they are SO COMFY!!! At least I won't need work pants for awhile. Most of my work pants are stretchy.

My thoughts

Well today I am feeling pretty *BLAH* I found out my grandma S. passed away. (we knew it was coming, but you never think it will happen) I was heart broken, but I tried to stay as calm as possible for "peanut". I just keep thinking that, I am SO glad I got to tell her she was going to be a great grandma. She was SO happy. And all she kept saying was "I'm finally a great grandma" It warms my heart knowing she knew, and was excited. And I know she is watching over me and peanut. We are making the trip to Indian River Friday for a little service at the gravesite. I will get to talk to my grandpa too. When my mom and I would go on our yearly trips we ALWAYS stopped at the gravesite to see and talk to grandpa. But we haven't been up there in about 2 years. I miss it. I know they are now together, and happy.

It is about a 5 hour drive, so I told my mom that we have to make a lot of stops. (So I can stretch and of course pee) I am sure it will take longer to get up there. I am glad though I get 3 days off work. Its a horrible reason to get off work, but I am glad I can get away and not think about it. One less thing to think about.

Well on the baby note: I am feeling pretty good. Still can't eat healthy. Everytime I want to make a home cooked meal, or take lunch from home, I get sick to my stomach. Just thinking about it, or trying to eat it, makes me sick. But if I think about it, or get something from a fast food place, or a restaurant I'm Fine. How weird is that??? I told myself if and when I got pregnant, I was going to do everything right, but eating out, I know is not good. (You would think I wouldn't want fast food, since I hadn't had any of it for 2 months before being pregnant) I just pray everything will be fine, and our baby will be healthy.

November 6th at 4pm, DH and I get to see and hear the baby's heartbeat. We are SO excited.

This is the email DH sent me at work today. I love him SO much. He is truly my soulmate:

I also wanted to say that I am very proud of you . I cant wait for peanut, I am so so excited. and im sure nerves will kick in but I am not at all nervous yet. and I'm so proud you have been handling everything great. and im glad you are trying to make sure you get plenty of rest. thats good.

Doctor Appt Yesterday

I went to the doctors yesterday 10/09, and I thought I was almost 8 weeks pregnant. Well I was wrong, I am almost 9 weeeks. My new EDD is May 15th. She did a Pap, took blood, and I had to give a urine sample. It didn't take too long. She said everything looks good, and wants to see me in a month. We are SO happy. I get to see my baby, and hear the heartbeat on November 6th. Yea!!!! One more month. I can't wait. This is just SO exciting. After we went to Mallie's to celebrate my lil brothers 1 year heart transplant. I had a blast. It was SO much fun. Plus I got to tell Michele & Jeff McNett. They are SO excited. Michele started to cry right away. I am glad to have such great firends and family. I love them all.

The Secret is FINALLY Out!!!

Well Yesterday 10/04 we told our familes. They are SO excited. First we went and told my dad, since he was going out with friends. I said to pop "I have Good news and Bad news" He was like "I don't need anymore bad news" I said "The bad news is It's gonna cost money" He was like "I don't have any money" So I told him "The good news is....I'm pregnant" His face just lit up. He was So happy and excited. After the excited calmed down, I told him, how I was telling mom. Well he decided now not to go out with work, we was coming to dinner with us. I was happy about that.

Next Stop: DH's parents.

SO we got there, and DH helped his dad unload the car, then told his dad to wash his hands. We handed them an anniversary card since their 32nd Anniversary was Wednesday. It read:

Mom and Dad,

Congrats on 32 wonderful years. We love you both very much. We were thinking about it and We wanted to get you a special present for this anniversary, but money is funny right now with the new house and with christmas coming. So in may, you will be getting your present. You will be getting....

YOUR FIRST GRANDCHILD

We had the "Your first Grandchild" covered up. Once they pulled the paper off it, I swear the whole block heard them scream. They are SO happy and excited. They just cried. We loved it.

Next stop: Telling my Mom

So we got to Jon's Goodtime Bar. (We love that place, and know the whole staff) And DH and I were giving pops a hard time, about being there. (Just so mom wouldn't suspect.) Once we got inside we sat down, and Kevin and Bryan were cracking jokes. Then we ordered our food. Then my announcement: I said "Mom I just want to let you know, I have the best husband around...look what he got me" Then I handed her a JCPenney box. (Had a pregnancy test in it) She opens the box takes out the bracelet case, opens it...looks at it, looks at me, back at the box, and then at me again, and says "You?". I smiled and said "Yes". She was shocked. She started to get all red, and started to cry, then liked screamed" She showed all the girls at Jon's. Hugged me and then asked a bunch of questions. She is a happy Grandma. After we ate we made our last stop..With mom.

Last Stop: Grandma E's House

So we got to Gram's house, and chit chatted for a bit, then asked how she was doing. Kevin told her she needs to get better. And I said because you are going to be a great grandma. She was so excited to hear that.

Well we told just about everyone. I finally got a hold of my older brother. He was so excited. Asked me a bunch of questions. Then said "I can't believe my lil sis is knocked up" He is so crazy!!!! I told Kristal this morning. She is excited too.

My mom told me this morning she is buying the crib. I can't believe it. It was unexpected. Our baby truly is not going to want for anything. We are truly blessed.

To Peanut:

I can't wait to hold you in my arms. You are a blessing from god. We have been wishing for you since November 2005. Now you are in mommy's belly growing, and becoming your own person. See you in May my sweet little peanut. We love you.

URG!!!!

Why are my parents SO difficult. Pops never does anything, or goes anywhere. But the ONE time I need him home, he is going out. URG!!!!!! Why can't they cooperate. So now we are going to tell my pops first, then run over to Kevin's parents. My mom is also going out to dinner with Bryan and Lindsay, so we are going to meet them up there, and tell them. I can't wait and I am SO excited. I just hope they don't have any Idea.

Well....its Official!

Well I called the doctors office Friday, and after they contacted the lab, she came back and said I am 100% pregnant. My HCG level is 10,177. DH and I are SO excited. We have decided to tell our families before Oct. 9th, we can't wait that long, and we don't want to take away from Bryan's day. We were going to tell them Saturday, but being that its hunting season, my dad is gone for the weekend not coming home till Wednesday, and DH dad is leaving next Friday. So we are telling our families Thursday. We can't wait. Its been SO hard keeping this a secret. They don't even know we were trying. I figured we have kept it a secret for a year and a half, whats another week. The hardest was this weekend. I spent just about the whole weekend with my mom, and wanted to tell her SO bad, but I couldn't DH would have killed me~lol. I am counting down the days to tell our family.